I used to be gagged by
Fear
My mouth stuffed with
The white cloth of silence
Stifling my screams
Sometimes it felt like I was biting more than I could chew
A constant, overwhelming, emptiness that filled my mouth
Othertimes it felt like my very soul was being pulled out
Inch by agonizing inch
To be consumed and erased by those who say
I’m colorblind. Can’t was just love everyone?
–
And then
I looked up at the night sky
And saw myself written in the stars
I looked down at my feet
And felt the fierce gentleness of my Mother
I looked behind me
And saw the many miles that my ancestors walked
I looked into my lover’s eyes
And saw myself reflected in his love
He reached into my heart
Eased the knot that constricted my spirit
And my voice
Burst out fierce, blisteringly hot, and blazing with a power
That moves to tears
And makes white supremacy uncomfortable
A clarion call for revolution
A challenge that says
I won’t be silent any longer because
Silences equals Death
And I want to live
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She told me that she supported me
But that I was too angry
And wouldn’t it be better for everyone if you just toned yourself down?
I told her
My anger is a result of my experience
And wouldn’t it be better for everyone
If you just gave back the land that you stole?